“I am truly honored to share my womb healing story, the journey into womanhood. Thank you for taking the time to read, and may this intimate sharing inspire and touch your heart.

My first menstruation came at a later age, when I was 18 years old. For nearly two decades afterward, my menstrual cycle remained irregular, and I received advice from various gynecologists along the lines of "Don't worry if you don't bleed, you can address it later when you want to conceive." I tried going on and off the pill, but I never experienced natural bleeding. Eventually, I came to the realization that relying on artificial menstruations through the pill was not the solution.

In 2020, I made the decision to stop taking the pill. There was no moon for an entire year, followed by just one occurrence in 2021 and another in 2022. However, in 2023, I experienced two menstrual cycles within three moon cycles.

It was in 2021 that I became aware of how disconnected I was from my womb. This realization prompted me to embark on a journey of exploration, seeking practices that would help me establish a renewed and profound relationship with my sacred space. I delved into moondance, acupuncture, herbal remedies, dietary changes, prayers, complementary therapies, and various workshops and books. Over the past three years, I have come to understand just how little education and understanding I had about myself as a woman. This path of healing, like everything in life, has its dualities.

On one side, there is pain. The feeling of not fully embodying womanhood, the passage of time without any noticeable changes in my body, the ticking of the biological clock, the frustration and envy when hearing other sisters talk about their menstrual pain, the sense of exclusion during women's circles where the topic of blood arises, and the longing to connect with Mother Earth through rituals involving my own blood – all of these experiences can be emotionally challenging. It is a long and winding path where surrendering to patience and trust becomes the only way forward.

On the other side, I am deeply grateful for my body not bleeding. Through this process, I have gained profound insights into myself and my energy over the past few years. I have transitioned from a life dominated by the fiery energy to embracing a more gentle and fluid water energy. I have learned to calm my body, restore a sense of safety within it, release tension, and let go of the constant need to overachieve. Additionally, my work with women has been incredibly fulfilling. The deep desire to connect with other sisters, to share songs and stories, has given birth to a form of medicine. Creating spaces for my sisters to express themselves, to be seen and heard, and organizing intimate group ceremonies that combine various healing modalities I am passionate about has empowered sisters in need of support. The love and support I received in 2023, through precious moments spent with my dear sisters, talking, singing, crying, and even screaming, has been truly transformative. I have acquired an abundance of knowledge to share, not only with you but also with future generations. There is hope that arises hand in hand with breast pain, joy that accompanies the flow of blood, and faith and trust in life when I feel the love of the Great Mother.

As I reflect upon the past few months, I can clearly see the magnitude of transformation and transition I have experienced. With each passing day and every new experience, I am stepping into a new phase of my life, accompanied by a sense of maturity. Regardless of whether or not I am bleeding, I feel fully connected to womanhood, embracing all that it encompasses.

This path I have walked is an inner journey, a path that bridges the heart and the womb. It is a message of courage, patience, and trust. It speaks of softness, surrender, and love. This message is for my sisters who don't bleed, who don't feel fully like women, who struggle with fertility, who have grown accustomed to disappointment, who feel the weight of the biological clock hanging over them, and who have yet to find a loving partner to create their own family. It is a message for single mothers, unwanted mothers, and all mothers. It is a message for those who have chosen not to pursue the path of motherhood, as well as those who have not yet made that decision. Ultimately, it is a message for all women.

Know that I see you, I feel you, and I love you. Your journey is inspiring, and I hope that by sharing your experience, you touch the lives of others in profound and meaningful ways. Thank you for allowing us to be a part of your story.”
Lina